I am going to ask this outright. I couched in another thread. But I am asking outright.
I can't be the only one dealing with this. This is a form of PTSD. My cousin said so. A grief counselor did.
How do you get past the end of life very graphic images? These are haunting me, quite frankly.
I am not special by any means. There are so many of us who just muddle through. Like the old pinball games. Bump into this, bump into that. We don't get any points for it.
Does this ever get better? Is it time limited? Mine is real fresh. Not yet 24 hours. I want to know there is an endpoint here, or what I should expect.
These memories could bother you for a long time . . . But they will recede somewhat.
Death is frightening, but you were there for her. She was comforted by your presence. This is why we are called “survivors.” Because they get to go and we have to go on. It is a real blessing for her that you were there to see her through. What a wonderful angel you were when she needed you.
Several months after Mom died I had to run out of a movie theater when confronted by a comedic representation of something that happened during her death. It wasn’t funny to me.
Every once in a while, now several years out, I will be startled and upset, triggered by some image.
Do your best to be kind and understanding to yourself. What makes you feel better? Be gentle and thoughtful to yourself. Take comfort in knowing there are many of us going through the same thing.
I hope someone is there there for me someday like you were there for your mom.
Not on the things that make you sad.
Bring your thoughts into captivity,
Remember the happy times.
This works for me.
God Bless you on your journey,
Thank you all.
I'm sorry for you. But try looking at it this way. She saw something beautiful before she died. What more can any of us ask for during our last moments.
((((hugs))))
I am so sorry for loss and your suffering. Have not read all of the answers so if you said already, forgive me. Have you spoken to a grief counselor? It helps. Even with counseling it takes time to work through grief.
I hope you find peace very soon. Hugs!
Please do not take this the wrong way, but I hope and pray that the following may help you. 3. Romans 8:17-18 And since we are his children, we are his heirs. In fact, together with Christ we are heirs of God’s glory. But if we are to share his glory, we must also share his suffering. Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later