I am taking care of 3 elderly family members and have been for a while. It was 4. I live with them instead of my own home now. I'm uprooted and so is my child. I do everything for them including gardening and farm work. I like helping and feeling useful but I get lost in the mess. And so does my family and our dreams of tomorrow. Now on top of it all, another family member who has health issues and is raising her grandkids with special needs keeps hinting that when something happens to her I will be the only one to step up and raise them! I'm just exasperated at the thought of this and how everyone gets to plan their futures but me. It's almost like she see this as some sort of social contract or something that I am obligated to fulfill. I just feel sick to my stomach and know that I am likely overreacting, but...
ANY advice appreciated on how to keep this in perspective.
Try to spend time alone with your Bible and pour your heart out to Jesus. He has walked in your shoes and will offer you the best support.
Good luck and peace.
I was watching the bomb scene at the Boston marathon, and what interested me was that there were hundreds of people that were running away from it, yet there were several people running towards it. Same thing at 9/11.
We are the ones that run towards the disaster to help those that are struck down while other run away as fast as they can
i could tell you my tale of woe… how everyone else in my family ran away…but you already know it. I feel EXACTLY like you do and there are days (many) where I feel I’m at the very frayed end of a short rope.
One day God will bless us greatly for being the ones that run towards the disaster. In the meantime just know that you are a unique, very special person. Even if no one else ever tells you so. You are strong enough to do this, stronger than the rest. You are not alone. There are many of us our here in the trenches.
But one day you will look back on all of it and you will be able to say you lived your life in a way that truly mattered to others. Not many can say that.