I don't really have a question, I just have been preoccupied with thoughts of "is my husband dying?" The last few weeks he has had many symptoms that seem to go with stage 4 or stage 5, kidney disease. We know he was in stage 3 a year ago. He doesn't want/can't due to his weakness and sickness go to the doctor. I respect that. I asked if he wanted to get a home lab visit as we have done that in the past, but he didn't seem to want to. He has already decided when he gets to stage 5, he will not be getting dialysis. He just wants to be at home and I agree and want him to be as comfortable as possible. I asked him if he would rather not know what a lab workup would show. He said he just thinks he has "a bug". I guess it is me that wants the info. I thought if we knew, we might be able to talk about hospice care or something to make him more comfortable. He is always in a lot of pain, bowel problems, itching, sleeping or drowsy all the time, variable urine output, weird blood pressures, less appetite. He has been in very poor health and mostly in bed for the last 5 years after multiple strokes. He is diabetic and has other health issues too.And like many, has a poor diet and doesn't have energy to take care of himself as he should. Bless his heart because he has all these years kept a faith that the Lord is going to heal him, and I know that too. Just don't know how or when. He has really fought hard to keep living even though he has been so miserable.
My husband was under hospice care in our home, and completely bedridden for the last 22 months of his life. He too fought hard to keep living.
I believe that God heals some on this side of heaven, and others when they're finally with Him in paradise, and we that are left behind to carry on, must accept whatever the outcome of our LO's journey is. I pray that God will give you peace and strength for whatever yours, and your husbands journey may look like. God bless you.
I wish you good luck. I am so sorry you are both going through this.