How to overcome depression connected to dealing with Mom?

Barbara, I wish there was an easy cure. I have anxiety that can be very bad if it overwhelms me. It seems like I'm also always battling at a low-level depression that is creeping at me. The only way I've found to keep the anxiety and depression at bay is to eat well and get some exercise. It seems like those things, along with plenty of water, work as well as sedatives with me.

Another thing I have to do is get away from my mother a lot. She is a worry wart and is negative all the time. After a few minutes of listening to her, I am as cross as an old bear. People may criticize and say I should be more patient and just listen to her, but those people don't have to live with it all day. I have to get away or I would be pulled into a pit of despair. She seems to enjoy all the negative talk, but it makes me want to go find some railroad tracks to lie down on when I listen to her.

Of course, having a trusty helmet helps when it comes time for bumping my head on the wall. (Humor helps a lot, too.)

Dealing with others who suffer with anxiety and depression can be very draining. I deal with a family member who has both. Sometimes, I think I'm in danger of being sucked into it myself. I try to stay positive and have learned that it's her illness talking and that I can't control her behavior. What I try to do is give her praise and attention when she's positive and ignore the bad stuff. I'm not sure if it works or not, but it's all I have. lol

Will she take medication? Mine won't, but I'm still trying on that end.

hadnuff - my mother is/was like that. She now has vascular dementia and is on an antipsychotic which has helped a lot. It was quite a ride to get her on it. Finally I realised that she does not want solutions, she wants problems - for the attention. As soon as one is solved, another one surfaces. This is pretty narcissistic. As Jeanne says, you need to detach and limit your involvement with her. I stopped answering the phone altogether sometimes. Does she like it, no, but she got used to it. They feed on attention/drama and get it by having crises all the time. You have become her narcissistic supply by getting so involved. There is no rule in this life that says you have to fix her crises or even listen to them all the time. You need to look after yourself and that means staying away from mama drama. Limit phone calls and visits. Your life will improve.(((((hugs)))))

She does take medicine for her anxiety. It takes the edge off of the anxiety but not a whole lot more. She refuses to try another drug. She has also had therapy but has said it is a waste of time. The therapist can't solve my problems. The therapists she has seen have made many suggestions. Mom won't take them. It is very draining for me. Especially now with no brake between crisis.

Barbara

Maybe with both of you suffering from anxiety, it's not best if you are caring for her. Dose she need a daily caretaker? Can you put some time and distance between you? If her therapist says she's not taking her advice, then she's not likely to listen to you either. I'm not sure what else you could do, except take care of yourself.

This may not be the most compassionate advice but for me, I would get rid of my phone.

You do need to take care of yourself, and that may require some attachment and some boundary-enforcement.

"Mom, I'm sure you will understand this. I'm just not strong enough today to listen to other people's problems. Let's talk about something pleasant." And if Mom goes on about the past or new problem, "Mom, I can see you need to talk about problems now, and I can't do it. I'll call tomorrow afternoon and hope things are better for both of us then." And then end the call! I don't suppose that Mom can help her anxiety, but you can refuse to dwell on it with her.

I was at the level you are for about 5 years, actually 13 since my Mom was diagnosed with inoperable cancer and was told she had 6 months to live...13 years ago. I have been on anti anxiety meds on and off. I am currently not on medication and doing ok, but do get depressed if I think too much about the situation. For 5 years my activities were getting more and more restricted until last year when my Mom fell and broke her arm and then it was one hospital stay after another and 2 nightmare nursing homes rated 5 stars by Medicare for rehab, and then to my home bedridden...one more hospital stay due to continual UTI's and found a better nursing home for rehab, and now back home on hospice completely bedridden again. I am so glad that I did not know this would happen 5 years ago....I get through it one day at a time...do what JessieBelle suggests by eating well and keeping hydrated, try to get enough sleep and compartmentalize my days. I have learned to enjoy the very little things in life most people take for granted. I try to deal only with the people that support me and avoid the vacation braggarts. I am going to end up weeding a lot of people that have shown their true colors out of my life and that feels good. You really learn who your friends are at a time like this and that gives me confidence knowing I do have the power to control some things. Start by taking care of yourself even if you don't feel like it it will boost your spirits.

I can relate to this. I think my mom is your mom's twin! I have suffered GAD for a long time and back in 2010/2011 when my dad got sick it was really bad. The panic attacks were terrible, the OCD, ruminating, depression, lack of appetite, depersonalization, never feeling any real internal relief primarily due to my own thinking. Yes, the situation was bad with him and her worrisome, fatalistic thinking didn't help, but I knew I had to do something to get myself together, fast! And as a christian, I wanted to be a better witness to her and him as well as myself and others. I can look back now and see that my dad's illness was God's way of preparing me for the disaster they are quickly becoming now. Here's what I did and still do, not perfect and others have hit on many already.

1.) Exercise. Go for walk or do something every single day. I don't care what you have to do. Back then I was so out of it I stopped and my husband stayed on me until I got back to it. Physically and emotionally it does the body, spirit and mind good. I just seem to function better overall and manage the stress which is key to controlling the anxiety.

2.) Eat well most of the time. This goes without saying, cut down on the sugar and carbs that will cause the blood sugar to spike and create a more anxious body and mind. I have my treats but I try to really get in good fiber (over 20 grams most days). Getting and keeping the body calmer will help the mind follow suit.

3.) Meditation and Rest. I read the bible daily and pray even if it's just 10-15 minutes on the toilet. I also take time to lay down or sit and be quiet with nothing on, including the phone, TV, music, nothing. If I can get outside to sit and breathe in some fresh air I do that. Ideally 15-30 minutes, but do something even it's 5 minutes. Yes the mind will wander and the body will be jumpy too, but stick with it, you will prevail. Time and patience. Don't judge yourself if you feel nothing is working, it will over time, but stick with it.

4.) Social support. Find good friends, family, whomever that can support but hold you accountable too. They need to be healthy people though, not toxic to you! You really only need a few, they are worth their weight in gold!

5.) You are not your mom. I don't know about you, but I have to remind myself of that often. We look a lot alike and I copied a lot her behavior growing up which I think I have now moved past for the most part. I guess part of that disconnecting piece so you don't drown in the pit too. I love her, but not at my expense and those who in my life who need me too.

I hope that helps in addition to the excellent advice you've been given. I just know how debilitating this can be so I have a soft spot in this area. There is also a site, anxietycentre where I did end up going through some counseling. You don't have to do that, but there is a lot of good info on that site. I still have my notes and memories of what I learned back then that helps me now.

This too will pass. Sometimes you have to accept the feelings and float through them. Hard to do, but over time, the threat (meaning the anxiety, fear) you feel will begin to diminish. Let's pray I can continue to follow my own advice!

Jacky

Oh , and she will never be relieved, she thrives on the drama like an emotional vampire.